I turned 23 weeks yesterday! I still feel super nauseous often, haven't been able to sleep without sleeping pills, keep getting sick, cry a lot, and have major heartburn/indigestion problems. But I treasure each and every day I get to spend with this baby inside of me. When I think about how fast these big belly days go by, all the discomfort and body aches seem minimal. Baby's doing well and pretty active - moves around a lot, especially at night :) From our 20-week ultrasound, everything looks perfect and healthy, too.
We didn't announce it publicly on social media, but we found out we are having a girl! The kids were so cute and giggly when we told them the news. Nathan's told me a couple times that he can't wait to have another mei mei (little sister) to hide under the dining table with. It's a thing between him and Izzy right now, as Zoey has zero interest in it haha. Even though Gary and I really hoped to give Nathan a little brother, and to know that it will never ever happen for our family took some time to process, we are extremely grateful for a healthy baby and so happy that Izzy's getting a baby sister. The bonds between sisters are so so special, and I'm excited that our 3 girls will get to experience that with one another.
17 more weeks to go!!! :) :)
...is exactly how I feel about this cute picture, taken just earlier this afternoon. The kids and I leave for Taiwan this coming Monday at 2 in the morning, and I've been feeling butterflies in my stomach like never before. The pregnancy hormones at 22 weeks are no joke. I know this because I'm usually the "up for a challenge" type of mama, feeling brave in most situations with my kids, feeling strong and entitled to this strange courage out of nowhere because, well, as a mom that's just what we learn to do. But not this time. I already feel defeated and my heart is occupied by solely anxiety and fear...and on top of everything, being sick in bed all day today surely doesn't help.
But I'm trying to get better, to feel optimistic and to really lean on God for all my fears and worries and weaknesses. The kids are so, so excited, too and that's very sweet to see. Especially the older two, since it's been two years since they went back. They remember all the families there and cannot wait to watch movies and eat candies on the plane. I bought them new headphones and also prepped 3-4 new toys/crafts as surprises for our long flight. I'm packing light and am keeping all of our stuff into just one suitcase.
Please keep us in your prayers and most of all I don't get nausea which I still have way into the 2nd trimester. I promise to do an update once we are in Taiwan and also any tips I find helpful and practical! :) thanks!
Did you watch the Oscars this year? There was a lot of conversations on the lack of diversity among this year's nominees because for two years in a row, not one actor/actress of color was nominated. Many actors/actresses of color spoke up about this, and essentially pointed out the fact that there are not the same opportunities in the industry for them.
"It’s not so much about the Oscars; that’s aiming small.
Diversity isn’t a hashtag in my life. It is my life. And it’s something that
I know people of color talk about all the time. It’s not just a hot topic.”
- Viola Davis (from here)
It was disappointing to see how white the Oscars was, but sadly it wasn't a surprise at all. Whiteness has always been a dominating trend in the film industry; it is not sudden news that people of color are rarely represented truthfully on screen nor are they offered the same opportunities to be great and successful while staying true to who they are. But I think there's power in us audiences in changing this trend and raising awareness is a great first step. All this being said, I recently came across What It's Really Like to Work in Hollywood If You're Not a Straight White Man on New York Times and felt like it's completely worth reading and sharing some of the ones that stood out to me here...
Happy March 1st! The rest of February was a good mix of relaxing and busyness for us. We took two weekend trips up to Vancouver, BC - one with the kids and one without the kids. Other than that, most days were spent staying in, reading books together and just hanging out. Maybe it's pregnancy and I get tired more easily because of it now, I haven't been feeling too adventurous about venturing out with the kids or doing playdates. Definitely extra thankful for the wonderful Seattle libraries and kid-friendly coffee shops near our neighborhood, which are this tired mama's life saver.
Here are some of the pictures we snapped while in Canada...