But God has had a plan for me all along. A perfect one. He gave me the most supportive, generous, loving parents and families who made my time in grad school possible. He sent me to the program at USC where I met some of the most inspiring and knowledgeable teachers and classmates. He placed me in a great place for practicum where I had mentors who were always willing to help and offer guidance. And then, He gave me a part-time position before I even graduated, which ultimately helped me land on my current job (also thanks to Gary and his widespread connections). He then provided us with the best nanny in the world, so I was able to start working 3 months after I had Izzy. He planned a perfect workload for me, 10 hours of teaching per week, which leaves me lots of time still to be with the littles. The sequence of these events were not exactly planned or expected by us at all, and looking back now, I really cannot thank God enough because He truly has been so gracious to me and our family.
Having always been the self-conscious type who is eager to make everyone happy, I do find my job challenging and at times, discouraging. But my weaknesses keep me close to the Lord, especially now I am forced to confront them everyday. I am learning to be more resilient that way, too (albeit very slowly :) Two quarters of teaching has now passed (with 1.5 weeks to go!), and it is looking like God is about to open a different door for me/us. He gave me an interview for a position at a school that is much closer to our home, which will work better for us long-term especially after Zoey starts kindergarten. I really don't know what will happen after the interview, but I am truly at peace with whatever God has in store for me, whether it's to keep teaching or to stay home or to do something else for Him.
And now I'm feeling extra thankful upon finishing this post...thanks so much for reading it! Have a restful + healthy weekend, everyone :)